Friday, October 20, 2006
My week hasn't been all that great. I greet every morning with a rise and whine instead of a rise and shine.
For the past few days, I've been wallowing myself in a depressive state. Living in self-doubt, failing to believe in my inner self and experiencing the psychological pain of regret, shame, and guilt shot me in the head, smearing blood all over my face. Whenever I feel or see pain, I take flight immediately, seeking self-deception. In the same way you would immediately remove your hand from a hot stove; avoiding pain. Using the misery as a catalyst for self-improvement, diminishing misery and restoring happiness is easier said than done. This is where the phase of learning comes into play.
I'm holding it all inside, on my own.
Goodbye is non-existent to me but it is existent to you :(
mooo-ed
